lyrics ;

Cry on my Shoulder ;
By : Deutchl


If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free


Chorus ;


But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide


But if you wanna cry Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do


What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do

wanling heh.

Oh fuck. I hate backstabbers. &you know i'm referring to you. Fuck. To think i trust you like shit man. But you backstabbed and betrayed me and fed that whore with all the info about me. I was dumb enough to have only realised it yesterday. Fuck. &you're making me lose all the trust i had in you.


Hehhhhhhh. There's apple CIP this saturday! ; ninnart would be on the plane! ): I'll miss her loads though. Presents ahh! =x a concert on the following saturday and another concert someday in June. Hehhhhhhh. I don't expect much from you. I just wanna go out and to the cinemas before i leave. yeah leave. hehhhhhhhhhh. I just want you to make me feel loved again. It's that difficult hur. Oh. Sorry then. &Jiayan is coming to my school on the 22nd June for the Girl Guides' Campfire &she asked if i would be in school. err i think so ? bec there would be this full dress rehearsal from 0900h to 1300h. I dunno if there's band pract after that though.

It's just one-sided ;

&that's pretty sad though.

Ohoh. Ninnart is leaving Singapore to the homeland on the 1st / 2nd June ? Till 17June ? Rahhhh! I'm so gon' miss her! ): Miss me too! Ohoh. &pei me in Japan alrights! hehes. I don't wanna dog house -___- Somehow , i can't differentiate ( sp ? ) dogs with cats. lol. I remembered once when ninnart&i were arguing on that little animal if that's a cat or a dog. Hahah. &Oh. I think i saw Adeline with her new hair ? =o

fukuan

Ohoh. &of course , I'll support Fukuan too! xD



Oh. err i dunno why are his eyes so small here though.


&i can't wait for saturdays , not for that apple CIP of course -___- &yay! annabel and jasmine and everybody are back from the malaysia trip! finally!

gah.

Gahhhh! I've got a pimple at the side of my lips! ): ): SO FUGLY LAAAA!

schedule.

Gah. Kill me man. I just destroyed a perfect chance just now for myself. You came and i don't care. I didn't don't care. Its because you didn't talk to me. =/ Ahh! Howhowhow. Omgomgomg. Helphelphelp. Your face was so black lah. What else do you want me to do hur. My grandmother even scolded me for neglecting you. I mean , what's going on lah. My grandmother is siding you instead. Uh.


O.O CAMPUS SUPERSTAR II! hehes. &that Wilson from Catholic High

& that Junjie from Presbyterian High
are both so shuai lah! GAH! I get High when i see them laaa. lol. They are adorable. =x & haha he's cute too. the youngest ; the adorable one too. hahah.

Oh. &this holiday is going to be a busy one hur. &there's homework in the school's website ; in the LMS. hehhhhhh. =/ like what the. I can't access to that lah. Then my homework how.


Ohoh &this is the schedule for my june holidays :


29/5 ; singing training , speech day rehearsal , piano lessons
30/5 ; band practice
1/6 ; speech day rehearsal
4/6 ; band practice
6/6 ; band practice
7/6 ; piano lessons
8/6 ; band practice
11/6 ; band practice
13/6 ; band practice
14/6 ; piano lessons
15/6 ; band practice
18/6 ; band practice
19/6 ; piano lessons
20/6 ; speech day rehearsal
21/6 ; piano lessons
22/6 ; speech day full dress rehearsal
25/6 ; band practice
26/6 ; speech day full dress rehearsal
27/6 ; band practice
28/6 ; piano lessons
29/6 ; school reopen. SPEECH DAY :O


hehhhhh? How am i supposed to do my homework hur. &the actual speech day thing is in the morning? err means , the rest of the school do what ? see hur. lol. o.o &i really wannaaaa learn how to play the snare lah. baixuney say it's gonna be difficult. But snare is cool. &i also don't wanna spoil the good name of jiamin & baixuney hur. Rah. I really wannaaa learn snare but of course , i love the timpani too xD Rahrahrah. &there's singing lessons and band and speech day rehearsal tomorrow! It's gonna be fun! [:

replys ;

Ohman! My tagboard so messy laaa! ): &i shall reply to my tags here yeah? hehes.


annabel ; hanah! just admit that you're lao too! you also laorenjia! &it's not only go toilet okay. eileen don't care me le. she's with that joey person. hur.
yayun ; haha. i will! thanks loads yeah? [:
jiaying ; wahlao you all good. always bully me de lei. i'm not retarded okay. you are! =x
alyssa ; haha. happyholidays too! [:
aaronphua ; hanah. i busy lah. not like you. singsingsing only. lol. =x
cheryll ; okayokay. linked [:
nicholas lim jie kay ; then i'll wait for a million and one years then! haha! wahlao. you biased! treat jiamin better! lol. then you be my stepbrother. nono. brother! hehes. like that , you bigger than justin le lei. your post very long ? sure or not. =x & what i still small ? i am what =x
shiyun ; oh. err you feeling okay ? i vry scared you cry lei. dun cry le lah okay! cheerup! [: oh err jiajiajiu ? lol. okayokay. nicholaslimjiekay became my brother now. lol lol.


shiyun! cheerup please! [: sad no good. lol. cheerup lah! must SMILE! :D


&you did pangseh-ed me. ): i mean , i feel so unwanted now , again. &thanks reneesim! haha! i miss you loads! haha. your surprise call cheered me up! &ELMO ROCKS xD &i got no mood to post luh.

wfg

Oh fuck. What am i hur. I'm not someone who just simply exist for you guys to pangseh for hur. You people always walk off like that luh. Leaving me there alone hur. Oh fuck. You know how that feels. Uh.


Damn you Eileen , pangseh me to go with Shanai to go slack in the toilet -__- hur. &you still owe me one huge bar of cadbury milk chocolates. I will demand it from you yeah? xD Ohyeah , there was once i made a so called group name with Eileen. She created the FAS and i created the WFG. yep. The Weird Fringe Gang. lol. was supposed to be me eileen shanai gwen carine joey alicia. Heh. It's not confirmed yeah. lol. Uh. No mood to blog luh.


Oh haha! Nicholas Lim Jie Kay is my son from now on. I don't care. You shall be Justin's little brother. Must respect him okay. He is my xiaomao erzi. Uh wait. Should be xiaomaomao because i'm xiaomao [: hehes. Those were the times when i started to name people with the maos. &hor , err justin , you're sort of lag lei. lol. Ohman. Tomorrow's the last day of the term &i dunno which are the days that have band pract during the holidays.


&shiyun , don't worry for tomorrow lah! you'll be fine. Cool down ahh! Panel only. I also almost tio mah. no offence =x
&ninnart , Enjoy yourself back in thai! &xiaomao and xiaomaomao is gon' miss youuuuuuuuu! heh? Get me prex. Thankyous.

Sorry guys.

Sorry Joey , Carine , Eileen , Shanai , Gwen & Chuxian.

I always didn't watch my words and my actions luh. & so , i offended you guys. Sorry. Yeah. I'm like that. I will only treasure after i lost my loves. Uh. Sorry guys. You people put up with my wilfulness and me being so unreasonable all the times. I should have treasured you guys luh. I'm sorry. Sigh. I know it makes no difference for me to say anything now. But you guys are the reason why i love 2I. &why i bother to come to school everyday? At least i'm happy with you guys. But now. Uh. I dunno what to say. No mood to post luh. OKAYBYE.


Ohoh. That time i asked baixuney whether i should take MEP or not. She say no because will drop out de. Heh. I should have take lah! Sigh. No harm taking another subject if it helps it O's. Sigh.

so yesterday..

Haha! I blogged four times today! & this is the fourth lah! -_- hehes. ohyeah, i was happy yet sad yesterday luh. i can't believe i actually talked to jiayan jiaying kenghoe and you for like four hours yesterday. [: &finally you guys came over to my house! xD Haha!


I don't know if kenghoe was lying to me or what. But at least he did make me smile! [: I don't know what were you and him conversing about until you both stared at me and i gave you both the huh face =x hehes. Kenghoe said that you still have feelings for me hur. But the next moment, you said you want me to give up on you. I don't get it. You don't have to get someone to act with you in order to make me give up on you. This ain't gonna work. You had just wasted your perfect acting skills luh. =x Kenghoe came to sit beside me and told me a lot of stuff. I don't know whether to smile or to cry.


But what i'm happy about is, you will always look at me with those charming eyes? That will make me blank out for a few seconds. That's just you. Hehes. &That's why my feelings have never changed after all these years yeah? =x But I'm happy to have realised that, you will always be looking at me, secretly and at least, see that i will come to no harm. I could see that cannot-be-described look in you. That's just so.. [: You told me to change -_- Haha! In a way you like hur. You told me that long time ago lah. I remember. &you said i was rough. Omg lah! Please lor. I so girl! =x &you told me wear contacts , behave more like a girl and do something about my hair -_- ! heh! when i was prettayeprettaye , you were not there what! =x


Jiayan ahh! Why you so emotional? Hehes. I am too. But you're scarier. Don't cry le lah okay! Cheer up lah! [: SMILESMILE xD &for once, can jiaying stop suan-ing me. Its annoying ): makes me feel so retarded can. :o

elmo.

Could someone be nice enough to buy me a huge elmo? ):

dont' matter

Don't Matter ;


OhOhoohwooe
OoohOoohhwooe


Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you


Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we'd last forever
I feel I'm hopin' and prayin'
Things between us don't get better
Men steady comin' after you
Women steady comin' after me
Seem like everybody wanna go for self
And don't wanna respect boundaries
Tellin' you all those lies
Just to get on your side
But I must admit there was a couple secrets
I held inside
But just know that I tried
To always apologize
And I'ma have you first always in my heart
To keep you satisfied
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
Because the way I been actin' lately
Has been off the wall
Especially toward you
Puttin' girls before you
And they watchin' everything
I been doin'
Just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't you
Ain't true
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you baby


Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you


Oh oh oh oh oh
Cause I got you
Cause I got you
OooohCause I got you babe


Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you


Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

fuck.

Oh fuck. So what are you trying to say. You rather lose a friend hur. Oh. You know what. I know i was damn fucking unreasonable and stupid before. But hello? Have you since the real and changed me. Well, i supposed not. Now, you are the one that don't want this friendship anymore, what can i do. I just want to be your friend. Seriously. And you called me fucking names. You think you're some great person who is the only one capable of typing such fucking damn long post. Ohplease. Your english suck. Yes, you may be damn fucking better than me in academics and in everything. And so? So fuck off with your fucked up posts. Who is the one making a big fuss here. I didn't say anything anymore and you're the one that's fucking bothered. &about the nicholas incident. Ohplease. check out your calendar or whatsoever. Its like how long ago. &about your fucked up conclusion, Please. It doesn't make sense. What literature. i'm not something to be studied on. Fuck. &you don't know what to describe and so you used one simple word ; lesbian. Ohplease. Ain't you more like one? Think. I haven't settled my scores with you when you and that whore insulted me. Hello? i don't live to be insulted , stupid. My words are very light already in case you thought these are just my vocabulary. I have my own freedom of speech too. Did you ever listen to me. I don't diao people all the time. Oh in fact, maybe i do last time. As i have said earlier. This whole incident was like so long ago and i'm fucking surprised you ; such a can't-be-bothered person actually remembered? Oh wow! Should i praise you for such wonderful memory? Maybe i should. &yes , it was just plain jealousy before. But now thinking back. God, how fucking dumb could i be in being so bothered by somebody who could actually insult, Oh no, Write something so fucking long about me that she can't stand me. So be it. So what are you trying to say. Well, if it was the old me, i would have shut up about everything, but now, i want to speak up, i want to be heard. you've got a problem? Well, on second thought, i actually believed that, after the midyear, everything would have cooled. But i don't think so. Oh. So now. What? What are you trying to say. You don't know me and i don't know you. Hur. I tried so hard to salvage this friendship, and now, you just don't care and telling me indirectly that the friendship is over? Have you ever thought of i feel.

Hahah.

Hahah! Went to Joey's house yesterday with Eileen Gwen Shanai [: I LOVE JOEY DEARDEAR! [: GWEN DARDAR! &EILEEN LAOMUOGU! xD i love yesterday man! I rushed to Joey's house after band meeting and i was locked out of her house for like 20min? SCREW THE DOOR ahh! =x Hehes. We were supposed to think of our dance steps but in the end we spent the time zilian-ing and taking retarded pictures and gossiping! =x


You're retarded! But iloveyou! [:

Eat ahh eat ahh! lol lol.

DANCEDANCE! X)

O.O hahah!

o.o hehes. Reflection of us? Hahah.

You think you very tall ahh! -_-

I LOVE THIS LIKE SHIT MAN! [: so nice can!

PRETTAYE DARLINGS! GWEN&JOEY! [:

See what see ahh! lol.

Emotional & Emo Kid [:

Heh? ILOVEHER because she's always there for me! My zilian-ing partner! [:

short hair & looooooooooong hair! [:

don't ask. It's just.. Constipated face =x

ME ; SHANAI xD

ZILIAN QUEEN! HOR! =X

ONE BIGBIG FAMILY! OMG lah! I look so cookie monster-ly. But i love smiling broadly! [: hehes. But where's joey deardear? ):

&ilove EILEEN JOEY GWEN SHANAI! xD without them ; i wouldn't be that happy like now [:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM! [:

HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY TO YOU! [:

&I had always loved you alrights. [: Haha! You're old! Sixteen le wor. Grow up ahh! &JIAYOU for your O's ahh! [:

I asked Rechil to put the birthday card into the letterbox &told baby qiyan to take it to him. lol lol. I planned it okay! iloveyou lah! =x Seven years just passed like that. &my feelings have never fade after these years. Heh. &i'm leaving you this June ): miss meeeeee ok! [: Sometimes you're just so nice but sometimes, i just wannaaaa cry at the sight of you. Oh. &Heard that you're going vivo to celebrate your bday yeah? Enjoy your sixteen bday! [: I have to admit, you're shuai-er than before. =x &love me like you once did =x

Yay! There's band! Finally! TOMORROW TOMORROW! XD I can't wait lah! I miss Mrtan and everybody ahh! [: I miss my section ): I miss Jiamin Shiyun Baixuney Nicholas. lalalas. Its like, Percussion rocked because of you guys yeah? [: Sigh. But nobody will accompany me home anymore. Sigh. It's just so sad and so lonely to walk home alone. You don't know that feeling luh, Slut. lol. Thanks nicholas! [: though you have been quarrelling with me since day one in cadet band! :o I must have been enemies with you in my previous lives :o

Ohyeah, polish your cymbals ah nicholas, hehes. It'll be so scary to find moulds and algae on it ahh! =x touchwood touchwood! [: Sigh. Baixuney told me that Jiamin not coming tmwr. Sigh. I'll miss Jiamin! [:

&my dear eileen muogutou created some dumb names like FAS? She asked me to join her group hur. FAS = FAIL ALL SUBJECTS. lol. Crazy ahh! Then i created another one. WFG = WEIRD FRINGE GANG. lol. &I'm influencing Shanai to cut her hair too! [: Hehes. Her hair is so so silky and so so long and so so nice :o Go cut ahh! [: I accompany youuuuuuu :p

Oh. &that R human. [: Fuck you, bitch. Looking at that face of yours makes me wanna puke. [: &I'll hate you for life. Because i still think that you're the one who broke us up. &I may seem to say that i don't give a damn about you. But hello? I'm one who values relationships? [: &you don't. Like WTF. My name from CASSANDRA <33> became cassandra (:

Days without band, I've got company to go home together and go siao with. Days with band, it's different because i think i'll be alone without you and without Jiamin ): Sigh. &I want you back.

i'm happier.

Hur. I don't understand why people spam other people's tagboard and put as anonymous. So lame can. Then what's your name for hur.


Yay! MYE is finally over! Aaron ahh! your fringe now longer than me leh! How can how can! Why your hair so fast grow de ahh! o.o time passes so fast lah! More than two weeks ago, we were like chiong-ing and now, MYE's over &we're waiting for results! :o Hehes. I told my dad that i'm going to fail History Literature D&T Maths. He said," Hur. Okay. " lol! I didn't expect such a reply leh! -_-


After exams, as usual, Eileen & I went to Annabel's house to disturb her and give her a surprise visit! [: I wanted to cut my hair but after shanai remind me. I no courage. lol. i scared ugly ahh! =x Hehes. I must be mentally prepared first ahh! [:


Hehes. Finally ahh! Eileen Annabel Jasmine Jianglin &I went out ahh! lol. I stayed in some shop to look for some birthday card to get it for you. Hehes. I stayed in that shop for one hour plus okay! =x Jasmine went for her lunch with Annabel in KFC and when they came back, I was still there. Haha! o.o the card is expensive can! =x &we took neos and that darn sick shihyun kissed me can. eew laaaaaaa! My face looks so constipated in the neo -_-


&I'm much happier with Annabel Eileen &Jasmine [: Sorry for ignoring and can't be bothered of you guys' existence when i'm with her. She should regret for throwing me aside [: Still, Annabel Eileen &Jasmine are the best yeah? Hehes. [:

[:

Sigh. &we're not going out again this sat -_- Jiayan told me that his parents went to Sydney with his bro except for him. lol. He could not go because of his O's. Heh? I would complain like shit if it was me. Sigh. &i don't know how long do i still have to wait luh. Sigh. &stop being so flirt luh. lol. Jiayan finds it disgusting too. lol. Ohyeah, 13May hur. I seriously don't know what to get for you lah can! ): I wannnaaaaaa go out laaa! &You promised. Sigh.


Ahh! Heh? I'm prepared to fail for maths today [: &for lit & history & dnt! hehes. I don't understand why should we study lit can. We are so not from the Shakespeare's times waaaaaad! Ahh! &I CAN'T DESIGN -_-


&I hate sitting in front in class okay! ): That suuuuuuuuuuupraaaaaaaaaa ahh! Her super piercing voice kills. And she would put her hand on my table and before i realise, my table has her handprint. Her hand is wet but why on my table! -_- Your germs are on my table, my dear science teacher.


Haha! I decided to cut my hair. Short. Really Short. I don't wannaaaaa tie my hair early in the morning when my hair is standing up in a super weird style -_- Short hair is more convenient too yeah? Hehes. But that darn hairstylist cut my fringe short the other time. Uh. Anyways, i waaaaaannnaaaa cut so that i could sleep longer in the morning saving a few minutes of tying my hair =x But I'm afraid i'll look frigging ugly ): I've influenced Joey & Annabel & Shanai to cut their hair short. Haha! Oh. &aaron promised to spike my hair for me if i cut my hair short! you promise ahh! =x lol. my hair is longer than you now! [: Shorty. =x


Oh. &i realised that, i don't miss you anymore. &I don't love you as much as before anymore. I was foolish to have been so crazy over you. Heh. &I'm laughing at how dumb and stupid I was before. Hah.

Okayokay. &you, the other you.

After much thoughts, I want you to be back in my life

I can't do without you though i told myself i could.

So many days ; so many years, i still sing my song ;

That i still love you.

But always, in my dreams you're real,

In reality, you're just a dream.

I tried to be happy,

But it just feels so different without you.

hur.

Hur. What's wrong with blogger?! Why are all my posts underlined? -_-! Ahh?

i'm happier without you.

Gah! I just cut my hair! [: Haha! Its nice when i style it heh? Aaron, help ahh! =x But it's shit when its flat ): ahh! I can't wax my hair in school, can I? o:


Okayokay, I shall not call my dear elenore xiaoxiang anymore [: I don't want to bully her okayyyyyyyy [: Heh? Not like that clarence! Xiaomeh! I'll call you funny names. Yangmehmeh / Mehyangyang / Yangmehyang / Mehyangmeh / Xiaomeh / Xiaoyang / Xiaomehmeh! But i still like Yangmehmeh leh. =x YOU BOTH GOOD! Gang up and bully me! );


Sigh. Survived through one week of MYE, one more week left! [: JIAYOUJIAYOUs! [; Hehes. Ahh! Could someone like, explain to me how to do the simultaneous equations?! I'm dying! ):


o.o &I can't wait for MYE to be over =x I got a lot of programs and they're tempting me in one way or another ):


- Go ESCAPE with Shanai / Eileen / Joey / &maybe Gwen or Carine?
- Go ESCAPE with Annabel / Eileen / Pearlin / Jasmine &maybe with those old friends that we used to hang out with? -_- Heh? We've been talking about this since last year's MYE! ):
- Learn DOTA from Aaron &Raynor! They say they'll teach me [:
- o.o BANDBANDBAND! [:
- Go arcade to play Drum-mania with Gwen. Hahs.
- Take the MRT around the whole Singapore to explore some weird places with Eileen! [: She promised me! We went Lavender and Harbourfront &we're going to Airport. lol.
- PLAYPLAYPLAY with Shanai / Eileen / Annabel &etc.
GAH! There are many more. But i can't remember ):


Heh? I used to be grumbling that i want to go back to OneDiligent'o6, but now, nah. I want to stay in TwoIntegrity! [: Though i know Annabel still missed OneDiligent'o6.


Hah! I stood at the grills to talk to Jiayan / Jiaying & him for like 1h45min? lol. We wanted to go out but Jiayan &Jiaying can't make it and he has his O's remedial -_- &He asked me out next saturday! [: Hehes. Okay. Us. I'll drag Jiayan&Jiaying along too =x I'm shy okay because i don't expect a patch yeah? =x

;okay.

&I decided to grow up
&stop being so naive
That you will come back to me
Yeah, you have your own group of friends
Who am i to interfere anyway


You just dumped me aside
&When i tried to talk to you
You can't wait to shake me off
Sighsigh.
I don't hope for that much now
That we could be like before
But at least talk to me and care for me can


Ohyeah, to the another her. So what if i call her a bitch and a whore? You deserve these titles. &I'm already being very kind enough to just use a bitch and whore on you. You know, stop acting like you're so poorthing can. Awww. Unfortunately, no one pities you. Elenore told me that, if i tell this to your ex stead, he would say " HAIYA! NEVER MIND LAH! HOPE THAT SHE GETS RUN DOWN BY A CAR! " o.o How nice [: You're just plainly attracting unwanted attention and i believe that you love it yeah? Gah. So cheap.


Sigh.. How sad to go home alone. I used to look forward to band pract but now, i'm afraid. I'm afraid that one day, I would not be allowed to go for anymore band pract. Sigh. &I don't want to face you. I'm afraid of looking at you now. Each time i look at you, i feel like crying. Like today, going home alone was just so.. Sad. Gahhhh! Well, i think i've lost you though.


Ahh! Haha! I gave elenore&clarence names! Elenore is xiaoxiang & Clarence is xiaomeh! [: Nice yeah? =x Of course lah! Who am i man! I'm cass the pro lei! LOLS. Paisehpaiseh =xx &after that history exam, i'm pretty sure i will do badly. Bless me ): I can't fail anything because if i do, i would have to say byebye to MCB. ))))))))= I guess TwoIntegrity was the first class to be dismissed. We were gossiping so loudly in the toilet lah! =x Talking about that flirt in our class. Geez. She actually asked me, " Haiyo! Why am i so pretty ah? Why so many guys like me ah? " OMFG.


The guys in my class calls her ParisHilton. LOLS. She thought that was a praise luh. OMGGGG? How dumb. She even asked Gwen, " ParisHilton is pretty and rich that's why they call me that right? " Heh. I guess she didnt realise that the whole class hates her and is against her. Ohwell, How dumb. I think Daniel have her something, then she gave it to Eileen. When i wanted to return that thing to Daniel today, He was like, EEEEYER I DOWAN I DOWAN! LOLS.

i decided to give up on you;

Ohman! Get a life you dumb eileen. You forever look so retarded =x But you're still always there for me heh? Unlike that somebody yeah?




You took my cam and said that you want to zilian -_-

You're pathetic! [:

Oh. Carine.


O.O its dark! =x

):

O.O Eileen says she rock. Heh. I'll upload her pic one day. [: &yessssss! I'm studying history! Oh. First time yeah? Heh. Ohman! Tell me when did Singapore gain independence?! Ahh! 0:

sigh;

Oh. Tell me will you. When will you stop torturing me. Its miserable to see you everyday now. I don't even have the courage to face you. Thats how great i'm affected after you left me. I don't really care what others think of me. Thats just simply childish of them. I tend to move backwards and look into another direction and pretend not to see you. Expectedly, it makes me feel even more painful.

Those outsiders were badmouthing me saying that i'm so extra when youre with justin. Ohplease. Get a life. You people only see me with her. What about her oh-so-super-best-buddies; rieka&huril? They were with her more than the times with me. Why didn't you guys talk about them. Hey. I have feelings you morons. How would you feel if people say that about you. Oh forget it. You guys will never know how i feel.

You know how happy i feel each time you talk to me? That would only be the only time i smile. From my heart. When i was dumped by angie that time. You were there to cheer me up and encouraging me to let go and look ahead. I should have treasure you since then. You are a treasure. Like how much miaoting cares and loves jiamin, i do too. Sigh..

sigh.. I don't know whats wrong with me by being so affected. I know you were already very close to those two humans since last year. But spare a thought for me will you? Crying, and yet you don't bother. Whats the point. I'm tired already. Thanks for giving me those happy memories i once had with you. I treasure them. But i don't think you do. I'll just a step at a time and may time heal my wounds yeah? I just have to hope that we would return to before? And we will be besties again. Sigh.. I miss those times. &I really need you by my side. ):

ialwayslovedyou;

;BOMBABOMBA

lol. &daniel is driving me crazy with his blurness &cartoon-ness can. lol.



Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
ahhh
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
tml can eat breakfast
&i look at you at such disdain. says:
hur
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
10 end rite?
&i look at you at such disdain. says:
yeah
&i look at you at such disdain. says:
lol.
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
yay
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
ard recess time
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
u all performing arts no mre syf
&i look at you at such disdain. says:
two years once
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
go training de purpose is for ...??
&i look at you at such disdain. says:
we dun go training
&i look at you at such disdain. says:
we not sports
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
dance for musical?
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
bt de ms chua zao liao leh
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
bt nid hv de speech day ....
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
wad ar
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
de ber hen ti
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
bomba bomba bom bom ba or wad de
Ah Jïĕ đąΩı€Ł яђ₣ xïïåðJiïe .iloveyou. says:
forgo liaox
&i look at you at such disdain. says:
LOLS!
&i look at you at such disdain. says:
BOMBA!
&i look at you at such disdain. says:
LOLS!


he's weird -_- BOMBABOMBA!

&im confused ;

heh. &i went to the vienna in united square yesterday! [: o.o but there were a lot of those china aunties there who screamed and shout across the place. -_- so noisy luh. then those after work people were like laughing so loudly heh. they're too happy that the next day is labour day or waaaaaaaaaaad -_-



heh. i was being stupid exploring the cam -_-









&ilove that&that can! [:


heh. my oh-so-prettaye &oh-so-shuai grandparents! (: