My love. Muacks lol! :)

Name: 이구철 / Lee Ku Cheol
Chinese name: 李玖哲 / Li Jiu Zhe
English name: Nicky Lee
Profession: Singer, Actor
Birthdate: 1980-Nov-26
Birthplace: Korea
Nationality: USA
Height: 177cm
Weight: 74kg
Star sign: Sagittarius
Blood type: O

OMG YOU'RE SO CUTE! K no, adorable~ My love. Call me Mrs. Lee! HAHAHA.

I used to be Mrs. Teoh oh wowwwww. Kkkkkk whatever. :(

Kit Ju and your gang of friends would go da sao~ whenever they saw me. We went OP once and you stared at the salesperson who said that both Kit Ju and I are your sisters and we're so nice to accompany you to get your top. But you flared up and told her that I'm not your sister lol. That was pretty embarrassing but it was so sweet of you.

Fox, Levi's, Esprit, G2000...etc. We frequent them as often as anyone could imagine until the staff in those shops recognises us hahaha. You bought the periodic table shirt that I liked it so much because it was so cute lol! But I never got to see you wear it. I hope you like it. :)

Kkkkkkkk.

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY, HILDA! :) (14 May)

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY, CHUA JIA QI! :) (15 May)

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY, ADELINE PHUAH YAN LIN, SABRINA LIM HUI XIAN AND CARMEN SOH (I forgot! :p)! :) (17 May) Wow primary schoolmates ftw! :)

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY, JIA LIN! :) (17 May)

Who else?

HAPPY very belated 69th BIRTHDAY, AH GONG! :) (3 May) So sorry zzzz!

Went Crystal Jade with family and baby Daphne's parents. :) Had lots of fun there hahaha. Baby Daphne is a beauty, I mean it.

Yoshinoya just smsed me wow.

FREE Beef Bowl (R) with any Beef Combo Complete Meal on Mondays ya ya ya ya yaaaaaa @ Junction 8 #01-38.

I was there with you. 4 months ago. You came to look for me after school and everyone who walked past were staring at us. We don't give a shit. :) Jealous is it!

What the fuck is happening. Everything I see around now reminds me of you.

I talked to Coach on Sunday. He told me, "Why you think so much? Why you keep thinking about him? He long forgotten about you already!"

Tuesdays are the worst for Shan Ai. And me. Don't ask me why lol!

Angels and Demons is now screening. But trailers were seen in December and you kept bugging me to watch that scary movie with you. No means no! But now, where are you? I should have believed you that Angels and Demons is nice. Where are you..?

Kkkkkk I'm in a fucking bad mood now. Fuck off, everyone. Out of my sight.

I screwed up my chinese paper for overall. I got a fucking low 60/100. That makes a B4. Where's my A1?! FUCK CHINESE UPSIDE DOWN. (!!!!) The subject that I'm most confident in, I actually lost to you. Ironic shit.

WHY DO I HAVE TO FUCKING LOSE TO YOU IN EVERYTHING. DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW I FEEL.

I'm so not crying ya ya ya.

Althea where are you. Meet up in June ASAP! Miss you so much! :(

'O' level chinese written papers are just in 13 days time. How am I supposed to improve to an A1 within 2 weeks. Impossible. Oh shut up.

FUCKKKKKKKKKK. IM NOT CRYING.

Kkkkkk I am.

Chemistry. I thought I'll do well and a distinction is no problem because it's all secondary three stuff and I got my fundamental there.

However no.

[c=7][b]Echizen[/c][c=3] - [/c][c=4] - I Love God[/c][c=12]. Why didn't you guys study harder?[/b][/c] says:
u should know better
u don come find me
u know u sure screw up one
u need to know that u need to find me to clear ur doubts b4 exams
becoz thats how u can do well

I just passed my Paper 1 (MCQs), according to Mr. Lim. I thought I'll do pretty well Section B and C. But no. FUCKING NO.

Mr. Lim said that I merely passed or I just passed by a bit. Whatever. That's enough to bring me down for a long time.

Congrats Lim Ching Siang and Tan Jin Hao ah! :) For getting the top for chemistry this time! :)

I'm damn disappointed in myself. Chinese, Chemistry, POA, E. Maths. I'm most confident in these four. Yet, two down.

Someone talk to me please. I'm gonna break down any moment.

I've put it much effort for this MYE. What did I get? A B4 for chinese and a C for chemistry. Wow huh. Why don't give me a C for chinese too and an F for Fhysics. I know I won't do well for this E. Maths paper 1 and 2. What's the point of studying so hard for.

You reap what you sow, yadda yadda. I rip your head off, fucktardssssssss.

I'm gonna bang my head against the wall for being so useless.

Oh but at least I did pretty well for POA, surprisingly wowwwww. I got 87/100.

I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. More papers and more results tomorrow. Disappointment. One after another.

I've put in a lot of effort this time. I don't see results. Maybe I'm not cut out for studies in the very first place. I'm trying and forcing myself to get my books in place and study. When I finally did, what I get in return? Results that are just so fucking disappointing.

You win me in everything. I give up. You're a born leader, ace in studies, whatever. You know what? I see you as my best friend and my motivation to work even harder so as to win you and prove to everyone that I'll not lose to you. But now, even chinese I lost you. I wonder if you do find your best friend (ya ya me -.-) lousy shit. My keyboard is wet wow. My top is filled with drops of whatever.

I wanted to tell you. Wait for me. Help me. Please. We will go to the same JC together, even if it means for me to suffer in there because I don't take A.Maths. We would be super good friends all the way. Well very obvious now, it's impossible.

I'll never win you.

Get me a tissue, sissy.

Everything is screwed.

People come and go.

You left.

You're leaving.

I'm alone.

Kkkkkk someone fucking console me. I'm damn disappointed in myself. Cry all you want, CASSANDRA WONG MEI YU. Fucking cry all you want. That's what you're best at, yes? And nothing else.

What a loser. I've lost everything. Fucking loser.

Before I forget again..


HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY JASON TEOH QI JUN. :) (L) (20 April) I hope you're coping well in your school.

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY CYNDI CHEW(?) :) (24 April)

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY PATRICK GOH WEI MING! :) (26 April)

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY JUSTIN SEAH XIAO MAO NAN ZHENG! :) (2 May) Oh yesssss er zi lol!

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY JESSIE YING AND LEE XIN ZHI! :) (5 May)


Who else did I missed out?


Shut the meh up.


Joey bought this for me oh yaynesssss. How sweet of you. K love you ah muacks! Not the shoes. The mirror I mean, sadly.

Been totally drained out since the start of the mid-year examinations. For now, I just hope that my efforts won't go to waste. For the first time, I actually studied oh wow. I'm determined to do well this time for I have wasted about half a year now.

I very chiong in my studies ah? Oh really?

I hope the rest of 4D is studying now. I'm sure you guys don't wanna live up to the name of the worst express class and the really cmi class eh. JIAYOU FOUR DILIGENT! :) We would make it to the group of ten-pointers next year's 'O' levels release. :) Hopefully lol. HEY COME ON. WE'RE NOT DUMB. WE'RE JUST.. LAZY sometimes heeeeh.

Where the fuck is my mirror.

Talked to Mr. Small Eyes on the phone till about 1am yesterday? What time ah? We started pouring our troubles and grievances to each other lol! Hahaha it was fun talking to him again oh yesssss and I found out that both of us are in the same boat.

It's okay. It'll all be worth it. That is the sentence that is keeping me going on now.

Occasionally, I'd look up and remember that flight of stairs near my house where we spent most of our time there. Instead of walking around aimlessly in shopping malls.

Yes I still do think of you.

But perhaps, time really heals all wounds.

I'm getting used to the life with just me, and only me.

It's difficult, but I'm not gonna be called as a timid/crybaby whatever shit from now on.

Because I'm sure, if we get to meet be it coincidentally or anything, I'm no longer who you think I am.

Is having a boyfriend really that important?
In the future in Singapore, having little education.. Where would it bring you?

LOL I'M PREACHING?

To me.. Yes. That was in the past.

To put it bluntly, HEY FOR FUCK'S SAKE. I'M ONLY SIXTEEN.

You really mattered a lot to me.

If you were to text/call me and allow me to just look at you from afar,

it'll make me happy. That simple.

I never had to worry about going home alone late at night.

because you'd always send me home, right up to my doorstep. (What's there to be scared of! :p)

I've learnt a lot from this break up.

I've learnt to control my emotions and not take things/people for granted.

What's so bad about being with yourself and only yourself sometimes?

I hated the feeling of being alone till I met you and I knew I wouldn't be.

But now, it seriously ain't that bad.

In the past, both of us had to cherish every single minute because you were always packed with your training schedule and me, with my band practices.

FOR GOODNESS SAKE I'M NOT EMO WHAT THE FUCK.

WHY WOULD I BE EMO LOL.

I've learnt to slow down my pace/steps or whatever you call it and look around to realise that, these are the things one sees everyday, but never took notice of it.

I began to come home as early as I can to spend time with my grandmother. Just sitting beside her when she watches her television programmes and see her smiles, whatever things that pisses me off previously, would automatically be forgotten.

Treasure the people around you while they are still here.

I've learnt this after 17th February, after you left me.

Come to think of it.. Thank you.

Perhaps.. not being so talkative and playing around like before really helps.

Many came up to me and asked if I'm okay.

I am.

In life, there is definitely to experience a time when you would just wanna shut off and complete whatever it's supposed to be done.

I suppose, that's what I'm thinking right now.

"Get your priorities right."

I've heard that a hell lot of times. Got scolded by Nicholas, my piano teacher, parents.. whoever. I am trying to. Give me time because I believe that I'm halfway there now.

If you were to come back and talk to me like before again,

I know I would fall for you again.

But this time, I'm not gonna be like before.

Neglect my friends, studies, family and especially JOEY TAN JIA YI when I was with you. (So sorry! :()

To Mr. Teoh Qi Jun:

I've never regretted the times I've spent with you.

Though it was just merely two short months but I've spent more than twelve hours with you everyday.

You'd meet me in the morning and see me get ready for band practices in the holidays and wait for me be it outside school/interchange/usual hangout till we go home late at night.

I spent Christmas, Countdown 2008, my birthday, Kit Ju's and Valentines' together with you in just these two months.

I played a part in helping you choose your course in Simei ITE too. :) Not really actually, but I did tell you to follow your heart k. =x

What else can I ask for?

HAPPY BELATED SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY AGAIN. My love. Stay happy, always. All the best to you.

Off to the showers and continue to mug again. Good night, everyone.

Tell me you love me, once more.

Post number three hundred and four.


Been really pissed at that small eyes because he last minute give me aeroplane. Didn't even bother looking at him in school.


I have conquered five papers since Monday and yessssss how many more to go? Ten. A really big thank you to Joey Tan Jia Yi who took pains to explain to me about social studies. Hah, I remembered last year that very dumb Ignatius Thiam explained the whole of the conflict between Sri Lanka and who and Northern Ireland and who but he ended up failed the paper and I passed! Hahahaha.


Hadn't been fooling around much and talking like nobody's business after since term one common test. It was only at the end of April I realised that O levels ain't that far away anymore.


I decided not to play and waste my time in class since then. But after I shut off from Chu Xian, Raynor and Muhammad and a lot of the others, I don't know if I'm regretting now.


O levels is important. Friends too.
I had to sacrifice either one so as to minimize my regrets in the future.


I chose to pay as much attention in class as I can and when I reached home, it'll be just a good sleep oh yes. Sleeping is very important k.


Gradually, I'm beginning to feel that I've lost the very good friends I had lots of fun with in class after isolating myself to get my schoolwork done. Before I actually realised, hey they are really gone.


I wonder if I did the right thing.


Sacrificing that bunch of fun people, I would regret for a long time. Same as sacrificing my studies, I can't afford to do badly in this year's national examination.


O level. Do or die.
What about friends?


I don't wanna lose that lot of people I used to hang out with before/during/after class.


I'M FUCKING STRESSED UP. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS.


Why wouldn't I wanna laugh and have fun like before. I'm turning to a geek wowwwww. Geeky WONG MEI YU OH YES THAT'S ME.

Went to this bitch's house today to conquer SS together with her. I'm one-quarter done oh yay. Not a big deal, but I'm happy k. Gonna meet up with some super small eyes tomorrow to help him with his art. -.- I can only think of super random words for you hor. Hahaha. Yup, it'd been very long since I went macbook crazy with this stupid girl.