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there was no band today. &it was so so boring -_- we spent our whole afternoon slacking in the I&E studio. the blowing instruments were maintaining their instruments while the percussionists just slacked there. i hate no-band days.


jiamin came in with chuying and i just practically shouted across the room " JIAMIN JIAMIN! " hehes. thanks! iloveyou k! you skipped your remedial just to spend time with your juniors which includes me! [: i mean, thats a big sacrifice. your O's are like this year, and yet. you dun go for remedial but instead come look for us and talk to us instead. thanks! [: i almost cried when i saw you =x


shiyun was playing with toys that look pretty funny with luqman for very long and they were aiming at each other's heads. funny lah! jiamin took pictures of them [: before that, luq came to look for nic to play scissors-paper-stone with him. and each time you lose, you do pumping and it increases each time you loses. so funny laaa! nic so suay. i think he did 8 in a row. while kelly walked past and saw, she laughed too. i was laughing, thinking how contented i could be, having a wonderful section with fun people. talking about this. im crying again ):


nic tried trumpet. and he was already pretty good for the first attempt. yiokan &jyh harng were complaining to me how unfair their senior, nuryus could be. bec nuryus actually teached nic everything patiently, introducing the valve oil and the grease to him and even demostrating how to maintain the trumpet. what a nice senior! [: yiokan &jyh harng were like saying that nobody teached them anything and they have to explore everything themselves. hahas. [:


at first, i sat down while looking at nic maintaining the trumpet &i suddenly became emo. i did not respond to joyce when she wanted to play with me. then things started to race through my mind again and those memories flashed across in my mind once again. i went to a corner and started to think about a whole lot of things. soon, tears just rolled down my eyes. i tried to hold back tears but i can't. i just sat there and cry quietly. i dun think anyone could understand the sadness i'm feeling. hello? jiamin is leaving. SHE IS LEAVING. after her years in mcb , she is leaving now. she is stepping down. you wont see her anymore in band. no one plays the snare anymore. as what nuryus say, we are going to play those super boring music pieces from now on without the snare. heh. like? poetic intermezzo? hymn of the infinite sky? i mean. pieces without snare are not nice. to me alrights [:


when i was down, jiamin didnt even come and console me. though she's emo at times, she's is there for me to listen to my longlong story. but now. who am i supposed to go to when im down? who am i supposed to go to when i need people to talk to. who. who am i supposed to call " JIAMIN JIAMIN! " when she is leaving sooner or later. i know its just a matter of time. but. i hate partings. especially with someone who watch me grow in mcb , who taught me a lot of things. ahh! im crying again ):


jiamin say she'll miss her sticks that stayed with her throughout 3 years. that sticks which accompanied her for 3 longlong years. but. as she misses her sticks, will she miss us? i'm very afraid she'll forget me.

will you miss us?

will you miss me?

will you think of us?

always remember alrights. there is this super dumb&blur junior thinking of you ; wherever you are [: iloveyou jiamin! xD